Yeah, we all know the old cliche. For about a month, I felt fantastic. I was ecstatic about life, and so motivated to live it well. I thought about going off my antidepressants, and was excited about the future.
Then reality hit again.
Now, I'm struggling with my self-esteem. Having a friend insinuate that I'm fat, seeing guys swoon over another friend, and generally feeling invisible to the world has left me feeling worthless. I'm still fighting, for which I'm proud of myself, but some days it just feels impossible. I'm trying hard to remember the good days, and wondering when I can get back to being "myself."
Whatever the heck that means.
15 years ago
2 comments:
my dear beautiful friend,
i understand, and i know how much it sucks when everything good seems to spin out from under you and you have to fight so hard just to keep getting through the day. but, keep fighting, and know that i love you and am excited to see you soon. sunday night contra dancing?
love you.
hey, I'm so sorry you're not flying high anymore - I was so happy when you were feeling so good. but it will come back - keep fighting. and you're definitely not worthless - don't believe that lie. I'm glad I got to see you yesterday - and I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to sleep on my couch :) hopefully I'll see you on Sunday...praying for more good days!
LOVE, Amanda
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